This is for those who I love. That would be Ryan and Kathy foremost followed by Bob, Ron, Sylvia and Mary. Bob has made my life easier than it would of been by my own efforts, and in an environment that was pleasing and wonderful to me. Many years of this help. I know it was two sided as his interests were able to be accomplished without worry. Never the less I have seen his heart, his vulnerable side hidden within.
Ryan's Love and Life is far away as I am and hope he would take advantage of it. Jackie, His Love, hoping to be his life and share all the good things they would experience together.
His hopes and aspirations.
And Kathy who has been my rock, the one who would see to my needs and call on me making sure all was well. Of Her I am proud of her accomplishments with Her work and Home. I am glad to be positioned as I am, with those who care about me after a lifetime of caring for and about them. I have lost some, but some just disappeared due to time and distance.
And I still love them. Our days were many years ago, in out youth. We had dreams and desires, all different, but just as magical as each others. But some became estranged.
I had wished it not so, but life takes many turns and paths. Sometimes their lives need a divergence to maintain their habits and sanity as they know it.
Some people are toxic yet at times exciting and fun for a moment, sometimes years, and are the hardest to divorce from our life, but somehow we sort of manage. Hopefully God takes care of them.
You can't control others, but you can see their rise or decline and wish the best for them. It is for them to become. There is effort and it is not he path of least resistance that makes it a success. It's not that saying "the one who dies with the most toys wins" it's the friends you make, the people you help, and remember sometimes we are in the presence of Angels unawares.
Wonder can fill our hearts, the sights and sounds all around us, the beauty of nature.
We will miss our parents and their wisdom. Their advice will be gone, but our memories will come through with feelings of love and smiles, and yes we will try to be like them remembering morals behavior. At times we will fail, but mostly we will succeed if it is in our hearts to try for goodness. Our Family may be small and our friends likewise, and it may seem little, but combined the warmth and love will be great. I wish so much for my children's, successes and happiness and when I am finally gone and hopefully in the presence of the Lord and Creator they will remember the wonderful happy, dangerous, adventurous and lucky times we shared. Those things few get to experience.
Remember those things, do them with those you love or if you have children, be a child again, see the wonder they see, explore the things that draw them. Never let anger into your heart, forgive and forget, and avoid those things that you suspect or know are wrong.
Know that I am unable to fully express my love for you. You have always been my everything, my pride and my immortality. In you the family of Wilkes survives and has it's place. Strive to make it unblemished, at least try.
In this, when I am gone, I will miss you and in time when it comes, will see you again. We will enjoy a family so large... Back to our Father. Do not cry..... but if you do, smile through the tears and know no matter where I am, I will be proud of you and Love you for eternity. That will never be broken I promise. Brothers will be dear in my heart, so dear, there will be no distinction between anyone in all my family. To my Sister, I wish you well and every happiness possible.
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